You know that little orange light in the dash that tells you something is wrong with your car? You start up your car on some random Tuesday morning…minding your own business, and suddenly you catch that annoying light staring at you out of the corner of your eye. Or maybe it is about 100 degrees outside and you really want to sit in your air conditioned car because you just finished a jog downtown…and THEN your car won’t start. This happened to me recently.
“NOW WHAT?!” That is usually my first thought after mumbling a few profanities, of course.
And when you explain this unfortunate car situation to your friends while in your current distraught state of mind, their responses are typically the same. “It’s always something isn’t it?” Yeah, it sure feels that way.
I don’t like that light. But on the other hand I am thankful for it. It allows me to take my car somewhere and have the problem checked out before things go from bad to worse. I don’t know a lot about cars. But I think I’ve heard that there are a lot of tiny sensors and little thingies installed in various locations to detect problems. They are there just in case.
After spending a couple grand over a month period, the orange lights are off and things are back to normal. Whatever that means…because it is always something isn’t it?
I haven’t been writing much this year for several reasons. The main one being that I am working full time again. I have a really weird schedule that is NOT conducive to me sitting down and clearing my head long enough to write a thoughtful message. Most days I am tired. I am distracted. I am depressed. I have anxiety. My ADD is out of control and it’s difficult to make food and do laundry let alone write. I just feel out of sorts a lot of the time. Believe me, I have tried to write because I have a gazillion thoughts going on in my head 24/7 that I NEED to share. But when I sit and re-read what I wrote it makes absolutely no sense, so I am sparing you. Trust me, you would thank me.
What is my point in all of this? My body and my brain have been signaling to me that something is wrong. I don’t have orange lights going off saying, “Hey you, take me to the shop.” I do on the other hand have moments where I sit and cry FOR NO APPARENT REASON. Tears are my signals that my body and by brain are in need of maintenance.
Tears are also a reminder that I am down in the valley right now. Things are not great but they will be again. The God who takes care of me when everything is right in my world is the same God sitting down here with me right now while tears are dripping down my cheeks.
I heard a song while I was driving to work today and the lyrics spoke to me. It was like God was reminding me to just trust him. He was saying, “Hey Stace, have faith. I got you!”
My time back on the road, so to speak, is coming. For the moment I am stalled here with orange lights staring at me. It is always something isn’t it?
And I am not alone.
Stacey ~ iamalive
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